Has anyone ever seen the movie The Money Pit with Tom Hanks and Shelley Long? It’s about a couple who purchase what looks like a beautiful mansion, but they soon find out it’s in horrible shape and is falling apart all around them. They struggle to fix it up, but end up finding more and more problems. At one point Tom Hanks’s character gets out of his car, gazes upon his money-sucking abode, and shouts “Ah! Home, crap home!”
That’s how I feel about Rockford, Illinois, which happened to be our last stop on this trip. Home. Crap. Home. Now, please don’t get offended if you’re reading this and are from the area. I’m sure your experiences are much different than my own. Sure, I had some good times here. But when I think back on the 20 years I spent in Illinois, I get such a negative feeling. The nostalgia I feel just turns into melancholy. When you live in an area, your surroundings just become part of your every day life. But when you visit a place from your past, all you’ve got left is your former experiences. And trust me, those memories come out of nowhere. Memories that seemed to be long forgotten hit you like a mack truck. It’s a strange and sad feeling when the only home you used to know doesn’t feel like home anymore. Here, I struggled with anxiety, depression, negative relationships, mediocre jobs, and the loss of a child. If you haven’t caught on yet, this post has a far different tone than the last two. Let’s just jump right into the last few days when I was able to spend time with some much loved and missed people.
On the way down from Northern Wisconsin, the cousins were able to spend some last-minute time together. They decided party hats were necessary, and how can you argue with that? Jackson continued to wear his as the week went on.
No trip to Illinois is complete without a meal or two at Beef-A-Roo. So yummy!
We got to spend time with my other sister-in-law and niece as well. She is seriously the cutest little girl ever.
Whenever we visit, I have a teenager-like sleepover with my best friend, Bridget. We’ve been friends for 19 years now. Holy cow! Nineteen years! Wow, I’m so old. Anyway, we had dinner and drinks, shopped, and just goofed around for 24 wonderful hours. There’s nothing quite like having a friend who’s known you for the majority of your life.
We visited with our good friends Kyle and Erin as well. Here’s a picture of my husband and Kyle. They’re in love. (Sorry, Erin. My face looks weird in the picture we took..)
We made a few necessary stops on our last day in town. First, we showed Jackson all of the places Ryan (my husband) and I lived together. We started at our first crappy apartment and ended at our cute little duplex. I just realized these pictures are out of order. Oh well!
He wanted to see where mommy and daddy got married, so we showed him! The church is fittingly called The Church by the Side of the Road. Isn’t that adorable?
The last place we showed Jackson was the house that I grew up in. I spent the first 19 years of my life here. I honestly do miss it. It was a good little home!
And finally, the hardest part of our trip. When I was 20 weeks pregnant, I lost a son. We visit his gravesite whenever we are in town. Jackson has been there before, but he is now finally old enough to begin to understand the importance of this place. I debated on sharing this bit, but I realized there was no reason to hide it.
Alright, there we have it! Our Northern Adventure has finally come to a close, and I can’t wait to get back home. I hope you enjoyed coming on vacation with me, but you’ll be back to your regularly scheduled programming soon.
Peace OUT, Rockford!
Stay weird!
-Rachel